Not Human

today was great, got to see a good movie.
I felt a little miserable this evening because it was 4th of July this evening and this time around I was alone with my brother. He doesn't have a care in the world for anything except Rune-scape and he is perfectly content. I celebrated it with my Boyfriend on July the 1rst. I really wanted him this night because so much happened.
instead I walked the streets alone and watched other families light off their own display. what made me sad/angry is the fact that wherever I go people have to cower away from my presence, give a some smirk, some sign of unwelcome. I had a young lady come up to me a few days ago, pestering me for my name and calling me weird, telling me she felt sorry for me. I told her it was none of her business, not to feel sorry for me cause I'm living the way I want to. I pay my bills, I have nothing but my brother to worry about.
What really gets me is when I meat some people my age in the neighbor hood I am living in, I try to ask if (for some reason if they could be friends), they ignore me completely and lock their car as if to make me look like a generic half baked criminal.
I have a bad feeling that I am not welcome where I live, or I have stale bad american blood and I need to be disposed of. I really don't want to make the reader feel bad for me. god bless anyone who lives a life of fresh and caring. one day I will live where I belong, somewhere that treats me like the middle-high class person that I am, not some thing.